03May05

everything i see these days reminds me of this. from the design sites i look at everyday to random blogs i look at, to even conversations i have with my friends; it’s all pointing towards the stationary show. even the national stationary show people has been sending me reminders and what nots. it’s been a year since i first heard about the show and signed up for more information. the day that the bright green envelope came, i devoured and looked so carefully over every page. i was seriously so completely close to sending in an application for a booth and getting together a line of products to display in the elusive hopes of finding that one or two buyer that likes my designs.

i even filled out the application, but i was always a little too freaked out to mail it in. what if my designs weren’t good enough? how in the world was i going to get the money to go out to new york and even pay for the show? what if i couldn’t find a printer or the right paper stock that will be cost effective? what if i couldn’t offer anything different than the millions of things currently out there already? what if this was just a passing interest and i’ll lose it as quickly as it had come? none of these what ifs even matter anymore since it’s been a year since i first thought of this, and the show is quickly approaching. bottom line though, what if my designs just weren’t good enough? there’s so much talent out there and they constantly wow me.

ironically, my little cousin told me she admired me for going after the things that i am passionate about and the things my heart desires. if she only knew how really freaked out i am when it comes to things i really care about.

on another note, i came to work this morning to find a binder clip glued down to a pad of post it notes. those stinkin’ gnomes, gotta love them!

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